Monday, December 29, 2008

My thoughts summarized in one paragraph...




As the season passes, the holiday decorations will come down. Many will swear off chocolate, and many will be successful until Valentine's Day candy goes on sale. I will put my Christmas CDs in a box and put them in a cabinet to be left alone until next September. I will keep "O Come O Come Emmanuel" on the iPod for the moment. It has been my Christmas revelation, inspiration, and New Year's resolution.  Sadness, grief, suffering, and all sorts of misfortune come to us all regardless of status or wealth. We can all identify with the call, "ransom captive Israel." There are those of us who are blessed to also understand the call to "Rejoice". In spite of all manner of suffering, we have life more abundant than we can imagine. We have hope beyond present circumstances because Emmanuel has indeed come. I want to show more than ever before the Emmanuel that dwells in me to the world that is desperately seeking for Him. Happy New Year!

Friday, December 12, 2008

My anti-rant.....on a lighter note

First let me apologize for posting so late. It’s been a wild and crazy week to say the least! Between giving finals and taking finals I must say that my brain cells are nearing burnout, thus the late post.

I’ve been thinking about RJ’s post and the positive message he shared with us in expressing gratitude to all the many people who have impacted his life musically and otherwise. Since it seems that I often rant and rave on this blog, I thought I would take advantage of RJ’s inspiration coupled with the beauty of the season to take a more positive tone. Every time I begin to go over in my mind the many people who have impacted my life via education alone, I become pretty nostalgic, to say the least. It humbles me so much to see the thread of God’s presence woven into the fabric of my life by men and women who took the time to invest in me and direct me down the path I’m on. And here I refer to Christian and non-Christian people because I believe that God has used them all whether they realized it or not. That said, I’d like to take some time here to publicly thank a few of them once again, and in the process, inspire those of you reading this blog to have your own moment of gratitude.

Her name is Elaine Wilson. Every day she comes to her small studio inside the music store she and her husband have operated for twenty-five plus years teaching and touching lives. I still go by at times when I visit home just to see how she is doing and I can honestly say that she hasn’t changed a bit. If you look there by the piano you’ll see the same stubby pencil with the cap eraser, the same round yellow stickers on which we would draw a face to express how we felt about a particular piece of music she had assigned. She drove me to every recital, every competition, supported me endlessly. And just as always, she still believes in me – amazing. I remember when I played my senior recital in college, she drove three hours to surprise me – and boy was I surprised! Then at my graduate recital I arrived to the biggest bouquet of roses I’d ever seen. Sure enough, there on the card, “We’re so proud of you – Dick and Elaine Wilson.” What a wonderful gift the Lord blessed me with when He gave me Elaine. I’ll always be thankful for her.

And there were so many others. Dr. Jeffrey Heyl, my choral teacher who taught me to love great classical vocal music. Dr. Ruth Price who patiently dismantled and rebuilt my pitiful technique and saved my aching arms. Daniel Schene who taught me that teaching is not telling, but rather leading the student to their own revelations, or what I like to call “light bulb moments.” Dr. Cathy Benton who stood by me through moments of accomplishment and moments when music caused me the deepest pain and hurt of my life. Dr. James Littles for teaching me what worship really means.

I count every one of these wonderful people a precious blessing in my life. We hear it over and over that we should be careful to realize the impact of our words and actions on the lives of those that God places under us. And while I wholeheartedly believe this, I have to take it one step further and remind us that how we use our influence and our calling is an act of worship, one that will be played out long after we are gone as a result of our shaping other lives. So, go type your list of those to whom you owe gratitude and follow it with the list of those whose lives have been placed in your hands. Perhaps a great title could be “My Act of Worship.”

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Ice Princess Reveals All!

Ms. Ballestero's post will be appearing in 90&9's Monday edition, as it includes a darling picture and some thoughts on the "most wonderful time of the year!"

Please visit again Monday.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

It's that time of year again


Feeling a tad schizophrenic. Last year, around this time, posted about a general dislike of Christmas music. But since it is the time of year to write about Christmas music... I have been listening to it nigh non-stop for three weeks and counting. Ever since purchasing Bela Fleck and the Flecktones' Christmas CD. Greatly enjoying (mostly) the artistry mixed with playful revelry. Subject, verb, subject, verb, my kingdom for someone with a decent sense of grammar! Never. Not me. Not on your life. I send Blackberries.

Yes. I admit it. I crave "Jingle Bells" as performed by Bela Fleck and the Flecktones along with their very special guests. At first I was taken aback by the unusual throat singing. I found it somewhat distasteful. I associate throat singing with Tibetan monks and thought the juxtaposition of Christmas music with a Buddhist tradition rather appalling. But then in started to grow on me, in a good way. I admire the artistry and musicianship and I am no longer negatively distracted by the throat singing.

However, it brings me to an interesting spiritual application. Where is the "spirituality" in the performance of music? Is it in the performers? Is it in the style of music? Is it in the composition? Is it in some nebulous region in between or some combination of the above?

I believe the "spirituality" of music lies chiefly in the lyrics. Music that does not have a "programme" or words is hard for me to appreciate in any spiritual sense. I have discussed here before "spirituality" in one of Beethoven's late works. Certainly, there is something to the notion that we apply (or project) our own integrated spiritual presuppositions on the music that we listen to. However I can enjoy "Jingle Bells" with no sense of "spirituality" applied to the music. Or can I? Is all of life truly worship? I fear I may be trampling on some sacred cows here, but can I simply listen to Jingle Bells and be merry?

I also like "The Christmas Song," "Winter Wonderland," and "Sleigh Ride." Especially Johnny Mathis's "Sleigh Ride." Rock on. And merry Christmas to all!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Oh, Give Thanks!


I love Eugene Peterson's The Message, especially the Psalms. I'd like to share a small portion of Psalm 105 with everyone during this season, this is my "Thanksgiving" Psalm...

Hallelujah! Thank God! Pray to him by name! 
      Tell everyone you meet what he has done! 
   Sing him songs, belt out hymns, 
      translate his wonders into music! 
      Honor his holy name with Hallelujahs, 
 you who seek God. Live a happy life!

In keeping with the spirit of the holiday I would like to express gratitude to the many people who have influenced the musical aspects of my life and have literally made me what I am today...

I'd like to thank my parents who encouraged our musical interests as kids, even attending the fifth grade band concert which I am sure was excruciatingly painful on the ears. Thanks for piano lessons and for making me play in church even when I felt I was in way over my head. Thanks for patience and understanding through the "tortured artist" phases and for sacrificing monetary resources more than once so I could be a part of varied musical adventures. 

Thanks to the people who at pivotal points in life spoke wise words to a young man floundering with life direction and purpose. I can now see the hand of God in what seemed like a chance conversation with Gayle Myers in her living room. A few years later it was Kevin in the San Francisco airport in a similar situation. Thank you both for being sensitive at crucial moments along the journey. 

Thanks to my teachers with patience beyond understanding. Thank you, Dr. Bogard, for being blunt, for giving me weak knees at piano juries, and for unexpected encouragement when I most needed it. Thank you, Alla, for Shostakovitch. Thank you, Laura, for shaping my attitude towards church music and for teaching me how to play it. I owe much to you.

Finally, thanks be to God who gave us all the gift of music which we've known since the beginning, are enraptured by it in the present, and will carry it with us when we pass from mortality into immortality. You are the Master Musician.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Confessions of a Christmas Music Snob


I really love this time of year. As the air gets colder I can finally haul out the sweaters, the occasional swing through the Starbucks drive-through is even more enjoyable, and there’s just that electricity in the air that excites and energizes me. And yes, I’m one of those weirdos who enjoy raking leaves. As I write today, there is a slow, steady rain – I love a good dreary day now and then.

Perhaps my favorite thing about this time of year is Christmas music. I’ll admit that this year I was listening WELL before Halloween – I just couldn’t wait any longer. Any why should I? Why should I put off listening to music that celebrates the birth of Christ? (Okay, I know that He wasn’t actually born on 12-25, but it’s just the time we choose to observe the most important event in history.)

But it’s inevitable. I turn on the 24-hour Christmas music station and some genius is singing about giving his or her heart to someone only for it to be given away – you know the song. Or someone else confesses that they want nothing else for Christmas, just YOU! You know that one, too. I’ll confess that drives me nuts. When someone hijacks a musical genre that is intended to celebrate Christ’s birth and shoehorns in their lamentations over their long-lost love, well, it just puts me over the edge.

Now granted, I know there’s “Holly Jolly Christmas” by Burl Ives or “Silver Bells” done up in Harry Connick Jr’s inimitable style, to name a few. But to me the message is still in keeping with the spirit of the season – family, giving, compassion. I know that people really do feel those emotions of unrequited love, etc., but it really bugs me when we treat Christmas music like a recipe: take one really depressing pop song, add the word “Christmas,” sprinkle in a few other holiday connotations and you now have Christmas song. If I wanted to hear that I’d tune into the local soft-rock station.

So what do you all think? How far do we go? Do we keep the message pure and focused on the message of Christmas?
Meanwhile, I need a cup of tea while Tony Bennett soothes my soul with “White Christmas.”

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

And the Nominees Are . . .

I have songs I would like to nominate for the hymnal. If we actually still used a hymnal that is. Rather I have songs that are modern but deserve hymnal status. I am judging them on the following merits*:

*I do not have the authority to classify songs. I haven't taken a class and I don't have my doctorate in Hymnology. I'm just a gal with an active opinion and the ability to type 70 WPMs on ninetyandnine.

Merit #1: POETRY
The songs have expansive language and majestic prose. This is not recyclable music that sounds like volume seven in the Praise series, with multiple uses of Praise, Hallelujah or Worship.

Merit #2: INCLUSION
Folks born before 1976 can enjoy these songs. The songs are singable to everyone.

Merit #3: CUZ I SAID SO
It's my week to post so if you disagree leave a comment and address it to Courtney!

Drumroll Please

Chris Tomlin’s “How Great Is Our God” -- a perfect example of fusing achaic language with modern worship style. Our church sings How Great Thou Art at the end and they blend beautifully. Congratulations Chris, we will plant a tree in your honor. Or, we'll at least keep singing your songs.

Mercy Me’s “I Can Only Imagine” -- Not my favorite, but according to my husband it meets the criteria. It has been far reaching for music lover's of all genre's. It is country enough. It is gospel enough. And it makes for great sign dramas. BONUS: It talks about heaven.

“Awesome God” -- Rich Mullins put it on the map. Michael W. Smith brought it back and it's been given the remix several times over. I'll admit, lyrics like "when he rolls up his sleeves he ain't just puttin' on the ritz" may not jive with Merit #1, but the chorus makes up for it.

If you can think of more to be added to the list, leave a comment!